all my boyfriends

ain't that just the cutest picture ever!!

i don't know if anyone else does this, but i have "boyfriends" for every occasion. these are men i think are hot that i have crushes on that i don't pursue. they brighten up my day. for example, for a while i had a delivery-guy boyfriend at work. he worked for dhl, and he delivered packages everyday, and we would have our little exchanges and it brightened up my day. i had my NBA boyfriend, of course rock star boyfriend, and movie star boyfriend. and then there was the bus boyfriend. that person that has the same schedule as you, that you see on the bus almost everyday. and even though you might be thinking all kinds of clever things to say and nasty wonderful things you'd like to do to them, you never talk except for a polite "hi" or "thanks" if they let you on the bus first. least that was my situation. i know other people out there have the same thing...one of my girlfriends had a bus boyfriend too. they had the same excruciating silences that me and my BB have...that is until today. today, for some unknown reason, i was able to channel the energy of the normal person i always wished i could be when he sat down next to me. today when he sat down next to me i was able to say "hi, how are you? i haven't seen you in a long time." and after that we talked the whole bus ride. i've been wanting this guy from afar for over a year (!!) and for some reason today the gods took pity on me and let me actually say the stuff that's normally stuck all up in my head while i silently scream at myself "TALK TO HIM!!!" i finally did it...and of course he's totally nice and normal...as a matter of fact i'm actually more crushed out on him now because he seems like a really cool person...i don't know. i'm sure its really lame to be this happy that i opened my mouth and talked to someone. but some people go their whole lives and never do what i did today. it wasn't just about talking to this guy...its the fact that i finally got up the guts to do it. i think that made me as happy as when i finally took my drivers test and passed. its like, not a big deal. but i've been waiting so long to do it i feel like i've climbed mt. everest or something. eh, i guess i don't have to belittle the things that make me happy. on the one hand i feel like, big fuckin deal. you talked to some guy on the bus. and on the other hand i'm like jumping 20 feet in the air (figuratively of course) going i did it i did it i did it!! the sky's the limit now... now we're gonna end up married with babies for sure! ;)